daughter of god

tonight has been an eventful night FHE was great spent time with the people in my ward that i appreciate very much , honestly I've never been so happy as i am right now like i seriously feel so blessed besides the the things that scare me and every other person about life the  future and preparedness i feel like heavenly father puts tracks of love and lessons  on our to be able to recognize that we are not too far from him that we can do this we can move forward that we become better people if we choose to be . the key phrase choose to be . two years ago i chose to close my eyes and not let the mercies of god enter my life . today it's a different story I'm very aware of who my savior is who my god is who i am on this side of the spectrum . I'm blessed to have him and all the people that enter and leave my life especially my family it is all to hard in this world i get it , but not as hard as it could be with out them in your life , living a life with out the gospel is very possible and manageable but is it worth it? is it worth putting aside the love and mercies god has for us.  is worth choosing to be blind not having the merciful blessing of being a little happier than the next person who doesn't know what we know. we truly have purpose we truly have the one and only comfort that can calm our anxiety's our insecurities our emotions and the waves of life and that is the atonement of Jesus Christ. many of us have a vague understanding of what the atonement means i sort of feel like many of us have learned the basics of the atone meant but have we really tried to understand the depths of it have we asked god what it truly can do for us in our mortal life's what it could influence in our daily decisions and actions what power it has to save us from the beatings of the wicked .. what it contains to help us be stronger and aware . its not hard the atone meant has a special side to it a side that i truly love which is hope . hope that god is a just god that our god and savior is there that he relieves and lifts that he understands and knows our struggles that he has a unique plan for us. our purpose is uniquely ours as we live through this life we have to understand Christ has given us the tools and the the love we need to pass this and move on to greater things lets not feel stuck lets not blame others lets not fixate our self on momentary things lets not let the wicked make up and sum our lives lets try to understand that we can fall we can make mistakes all the time . the thing we have to think about  is what can we do  next ?  how we change it? how  do we let god and the savior in our life? truly let them help us and influence us in thinking making and doing good decisions life is a long process but it doesn't have to be as hard as it could be . create the foundation needed to help us stay up and keep nourishing as long as you do your part the lord will do the rest , be sure that he loves you be sure that he is real be sure that he is just be sure that you know the truth of all things through him . and when you do your heart will be filled with gratitude . you will remember this day remember him and how life can be oh so very sweet  in the midst of trials and happiness . god shows me how promises are fulfilled every time i choose to do the right thing . i feel it in my heart , things like this happen if you choose to believe , with this said , i am oh so very grateful and oh so happy that i am who i am i am apart of this i am a daughter of god.