How do you fall in love with out falling in love ?
how do you answer
how can you love someone with out knowing them
my response
well i don't know how can you not ?
Things like feelings don't just magically appear .
their are certain attributes that triggers these emotions .
Their are certain things that soften you're heart .
just like when you meet someone for the first time ...
and that one in a millionth person hooks you for that one second .
it's like the whole world freezes and it's just you and that person .
for the one second his smile or her smile captivates your heart
it's like for the one second what ever you had on your mind before was gone
and all you want to do is get to know what's behind that smile .
Do you believe in love at first sight ?
I don't
I don't know what i believe when it comes to this
it's actually a cruel puzzle
it's like a game of monopoly you start ambitious and end up tired hopeless bored and disappointed that you could never finish
sort of like never having a happily ever after .
when you read this you might think oh this writer has a negative out look or just hasn't had a break in this area .
not true I've been in love and this person means the whole world to me and that person will always be my number one but life tends to move fast and feelings grow apart . it's tricky you see ... it's a feeling of endless happiness but sometimes it's so short . your grow older you grow wiser you grow stronger .
yet you grow alone . most people chase the idea of love , and never really know what it is . i don't think theirs just one definition for it i think there are several definitions for the idea of love . everyone is different but the same . everyone can want the same feeling but receive it differently two souls collide when one has been broken and can appreciate the value of kindness and laughter and tears and joy
you don't become hope less in love you become weary and guarded .
there are times where people we trust the most with our hearts hurt us ,
and it is hard to look at that person the same way after . you might remember the "good times" but in the back of your mind you begin to feel the pain of betrayal ..
and sometimes we let go to heal
and when we heal we never look again for what we once had before or at least it's not as important anymore
at least in my eyes . this past year has been a interesting one ... i developed a crush that got out of hand . and soon realized . where did this come from why ? it's wrong i guess because . it wasn't mutual . or even because I've never really been so intrigued or rejected ha . this summer made me examine where i stood and why i acted so foolish there are no justifications for my behavior and all i wanted to do is say sorry and really just say i never meant for any of this . i honestly was NEVER like that . i just wanted to make amends . but i feel like that ship has sailed and things are okay like this . crushes are crushes and they all someday go away . I've grown to learn what persona i want to be and now i know ...
I'm moving back home this December . i need a dose of reality . i miss home . i miss what i knew and i miss the person i was before . i miss the people i love . the five months i will be home will be months i will appreciate so much . i love Utah i love Provo i love the feeling of peace . i will be back Utah but i will be living in SLC . i think it will be a great opportunity and a new start .
how do you love someone you don't know ?
you love them and love them for who they are . no matter the mistakes .
this is all part of a short story book I'm writing . with a friend .
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